I'm Excited!
It's funny how God's love and power seem to work in my life. At times when things seem most desperate, there is always a light, always a seed of faith, and always something to look forward to. I'm getting older, 38 now, find myself in school trying to earn that elusive doctoral degree with no funds to pay for my education, a ton of debt from student loans and bad money management, a still costly and still less than civil divorce, a recent weight gain of 30 pounds, a month long bout with Strep, H1N1, and other insundry bugs,...and, I have a three year old son who has been diagnosed with Autism, Hypotonia, Speech Disorder, Sensory Integration Dysfunction, Fine motor Delay, and best of all A GIGANTIC HEART that spews love and hugs and joy wherever he goes!
For anyone reading this, and even for myself, now seems not the time to begin the journey towards adoption. Yet, as I just hung up the phone with one of my best friends (Durana) on the West coast, I again confirmed, and so did she, that we will adopt children, and that we have been destined and called by a higher power to do so. Being an only child, I miss what could have been for myself and my son in regards to family. When my mother is gone, I will be truly alone (on this earth) as far as family is concerned. I don't want that same fate for my son. I have always wanted three children and to be able to adopt two would be a dream come true. Of course, I'll start with one (unless I get to Russia and can't resist a sibling pair!). Honestly, I could care less that I am not the picture of perfection. I am a great mom! I love being a mom and my kid has more fun in life at three years of age than most adults. I could never tire of giving him direction in life, providing chances for learning, and just, well, being there. The tough love parts are harder, I hate tears but as a professional educator, I know that children need guidance.
SO, what will I do, now that I am committed to this?
Well, first I need to get in a better financial place. Having grown up in a home where money was more than tight and where my mother was always borrowing from family, I want to be self-sufficient. This PHASE 1 is going to include opening a savings account to BRING HOPE HOME, fund raise with friends and family, and work really hard at eliminating my consumer debt. The first part of that plan is to complete my final paper for the granting of my Education Specialist Degree. Doing so will result in a good little pay raise at work. Next, I am going to better market my hobby - taking pictures. I am going to re-work my photography website and start advertising for family shoots on the weekends. Finally, I am going to get my stock photography site up and running. Phase one needs to be completed in the next 60 to 09 days. Specifically:
- by 11/23/09 - completion and first submission of my EdS final paper
- by 2/1/10 - http://www.1000wordsgeorgia.com/ is reworked AND http://www.99centstockpics.com/ is up and running and making money.
so, please wish me luck, pray for us and that God's will and grace and promises be revealed through the skills and spirit that he hath already placed within me to get-r-done!
This is Phase 1 in bringing hope home. (HOPE is the name I have given as a placeholder for the actual name of the child I pray to, during 2010, bring home from Russia to join his or her forever family :)
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