and hang on.
That is what I have always been told to do when you are at the end of your rope.
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I don't have anything profound to say, I just have a splitting migraine and I need to go to sleep.
We sent our dossier today.
Incomplete.
The President of Wells Fargo Home Mortgages is still working on a letter we need, and it is a problem. I have no idea why, it just is.
Our documents are starting to expire, one by one, starting with our FBI clearances, as we approach an entire year that we have been working, every day, to rescue our sweet baby boy.
I don't have anything profound to say, I just have a splitting migraine and I need to go to sleep.
We sent our dossier today.
Incomplete.
The President of Wells Fargo Home Mortgages is still working on a letter we need, and it is a problem. I have no idea why, it just is.
Our documents are starting to expire, one by one, starting with our FBI clearances, as we approach an entire year that we have been working, every day, to rescue our sweet baby boy.
This is not our fault. They halted all adoptions in Ian's country in November of 2010 and did not re-open the process until Feb. 1. Then, they changed the process and demanded more and new and difficult to obtain paperwork from us, delaying us again.
Today, the one judge left in our region who will even consider hearing a special needs case, is demanding a whole new Homestudy update, which will cost us $1,000.00, lost time from work, 500 plus miles of driving, and various other in sundry time and energy draining things to get it done. The word "update" is deceptive. It is the Homestudy ALL OVER again, save a few parts that have nothing to do with document production.
We are totally exhausted.
Today, the one judge left in our region who will even consider hearing a special needs case, is demanding a whole new Homestudy update, which will cost us $1,000.00, lost time from work, 500 plus miles of driving, and various other in sundry time and energy draining things to get it done. The word "update" is deceptive. It is the Homestudy ALL OVER again, save a few parts that have nothing to do with document production.
We are totally exhausted.
I am out of sick days and leave time at work, so getting it done means taking unpaid leave. Great.
We still need $12,000.00, on the conservative side, to save Ian.
We still need $12,000.00, on the conservative side, to save Ian.
and finally, while I sulk in my own puddle of tears over this seemingly never ending adoption process, and the emotional wake it produces each day....
Our Hero of Hope for Ian, a young lady who made it her mission to raise more than $3,000.00 for Ian, Amie's mother-in-law was diagnosed with cancer - an agressive one, and the family is devastated, and so are we.
Our Hero of Hope for Ian, a young lady who made it her mission to raise more than $3,000.00 for Ian, Amie's mother-in-law was diagnosed with cancer - an agressive one, and the family is devastated, and so are we.
I don't even know what to do.
I will never give up on bringing Ian home but today is the first day I have ever really felt like the process in and of itself, could possibly keep him from coming home.
and that feeling is horrible.
This is where you really find out what you are made of, Gretchen. Hang on tight, my friend. God is with you. He'll pull you up and make your burdens light. My prayers are with you every day.
ReplyDeletePraying for your peace and encouragement. I hate days like that. I've learned through all our processes that when God leads...He does not lead without providing. There is only one that doesn't want this to happen...satan and he's doing everything to stop this. I'm going to be standing in confidence of the Conqueror for you. I've been there. Hugs....
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you and your sweet Ian!!!! With GOD anything is possible and all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. Keep believing and don't despair, no matter the outcome you will get through it with Gods help, just keep your head up and keep saying out loud that you are trusting that God is going to bring you peace! Love you and you are not ALONE!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHe will not be left an orphan. You will rescue him...
ReplyDeleteHaven't been through the process myself, but my heart hurts with yours. God is sovereign - not one thing happens without His notice. Let Him wrap you in His arms and comfort you as only He can.
Blessings!
I firmly believe that he is your son...I have been quietly following your blog and I am so glad that you are pushing forward! I also believe that God will help you...the hard work and angst will pay off!
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