Maybe learning to, and learning to enjoy,
spending time alone
was all a part of his master plan.
For me, special needs international adoption can be a very lonely road to walk, despite the manic swirling of papers, money, people, prayer, emotions, and work...
When you think no one cares about what you have been called to do,
When you allow negative thoughts to enter your mind about all the what-ifs,
When you are still more than $20,000.00 short of the money it will take to bring him home,
When your own family members fear the child you love so much already...
Yet, I am strangely comforted, and bask in the warm light of skipping happily along
his path.
Jesus often walked the road alone.
The truth can be a lonely place once your eyes are opened to it.
Still, I would rather walk alone, than be surrounded by people and things that ignore what breaks God's heart.
We will get there, and the hardship of the journey will make it that much sweeter.
I have begun to see the signs of life along his road, and I never want to walk anywhere else.
Boy have you ever put my feelings into words so perfectly. I'm not an only child, but I have felt very alone in this journey as well. I'm sure you can agree, though that sometimes loneliness is a good thing, because we can emathize a little more to what Christ felt when he was left alone in the Garden and we know that he can surely do the same with us.
ReplyDeleteHeather, you are awesome and so is he! Right now you are on that jet plane to see our babies! God be with you and let us hear from you soon:)
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